A journey and the twelve steps.

A Meditation.
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The forsaken, a night of hopelessness and helplessness. Lost in my own sin. A striving to escape feelings of guilt. Instead of resisting thoughts, to accept them and come to terms with their message. When Odin was hanging from a tree, he sacrificed himself   unto himself and the price he had to pay for insight and wisdom was a crow pecking out one of his eyes. To be crucified by your own conception of love. When anger ensues, pray about your circumstances for change. Meditation to see the light and a new horizon. To find more meaning. Upon a plagued feeling, make amends to yourself by making amends to other parties. This prevents admonishing oneself. It is part of a pleasure principle where we work with environment to produce less stress. This can be achieved by a process of cooperation with other people. Before this process can take place, belief in the recognition that our habits may have become a liability is a necessity. By making any amends that we need, we become relieved of the feelings of guilt that rack our minds. We have experienced a need to change.  Prior to this, we had a blacker than thou attitude. Sin is often seen as conventionally black.
A lessening need for a drug or a drink to dull the pain.
Believing something can restore my sanity and can offer me hope, and an opportunity to see the situation as less threatening. This would be as part of a process of resolving our defences with others. Seeing a woman in a red dress might not take you back the memory of the bully with the red hat, or, once bitten twice shy, often called making an association or generalising. This is called projection.   Restitution to people for crimes committed against their person or acts of clumsiness by myself is necessary. Next is a belief that I could put down my burden and by letting go feel free and detached. Sin had taught me what a load was and what it meant to become free and to to see a deity or what is called a higher power. Meditation stills the mind to see where peace is coming from, this being the path to the light where one asks for knowledge of your gods expectations of you in which there will be the assurance that your life will change and so would your luck.
A next step is to pass on your good luck as a testimony of how you have arrived at a tranquil state. This involves gratitude and grace.
I pass on to you my knowledge of runes which  by a method of divination offers  guidance on decisions and allow you a method of change and a means to emotional balance and optimism.